Here me out…I am not here to complain or grumble about Motherhood.
When I say Motherhood is messy I truly mean it in a beautiful way.
Rewind to me being overly stressed not just by Motherhood, but by life…and my counseler encouraging me to make 3 Mantras.
One of my mantras: Motherhood is Messy.
Why that mantra?
Well, ever since I can remember, I have only wanted to be a mother.
Sure finding a job and career was great, but I couldn’t wait to settle down and get married and become a mother.
And I waited.
And I waited.
All through the decades of my “glorious 20’s” I waited to be a mother.
I held many beautiful babies in that decade, and could only hope that one day, I too would have a little child of my own.
Blessings came, the love of my life came and we were married.
It was only 11 months later that we welcomed our sweet baby boy into our lives.
And oh how beautiful was the day when I could finally be a mother.
Instantly, I changed.
In some ways it was a good change, in other ways, not so good.
An anxiousness crept over me.
I wanted nothing but to keep this tiny human child of mine safe and happy and I would do anything to accomplish that.
Anything to the degree of waking up every two hours to rock this new baby back to sleep because he was a terrible sleeper and I wanted to keep him comfortable and happy.
I loved being with my sweet baby every minute, and carried “mom guilt” thinking maybe I didn’t read to him enough, or give him enough veggies and fruits, and the list goes on.
And yet, I loved every minute of taking this sweet baby to the park and cuddling on him and just being with him.
And then I had my second child, and then not too long after that my third child.
I had my beautiful babies, 3 kids in 4 years and I was grateful, and happy but also tired and overwhelmed.
It was messy! I was emotional because I was drained, and I was emotional because I was grateful and happy.
And guess what?
It wasn’t exactly like I had pictured motherhood.
As a child I viewed motherhood as quite simple, and easy and smooth.
I had set this expectation up in my mind that motherhood was beautiful in every single aspect.
And motherhood is beautiful in many ways…but guess what?
Anything that is beautiful, has it’s messy sides too.
If you combine it together, it’s a beautiful mess.
A beautiful mess that I had to learn to juggle differently.
To be honest, it’s a beautiful mess that I am STILL trying to juggle through.
I get anxious over many things with my beautiful kids, and I pray every day to let FAITH rise over my FEARS.
That protective mama bear is real and it can be hard to simmer the mama bear down and let the bear cubs breathe, and learn through their bumps and bruises.
Everyday in motherhood, no matter how old your child is, your mind is constantly thinking about those beautiful babies. Sometimes, it can be a real challenge to find that “balance” in life.
And the big one for this MAMA, is to drop the expectations.
That in no way means to be a terrible, mean, mother.
More-so, don’t set expectations that EVERY day in motherhood will be easy and amazing and if it’s not that YOU FAILED. Because it’s not the case.
Motherhood is messy.
It’s a beautiful mess and let’s be honest, most days, there will be some tears in the home. Whether it be from the kids or from mom herself.
And that’s ok.
You know why it’s ok?
Nobody completely has motherhood figured out.
Motherhood is a day-to-day process, where some days look and seem better than others.
However, if you look back at each day, you realize even in the messes, there were beautiful messes.
Simple moments that are dear and precious to mothers hearts, that leave imprints on the soul for good, forever.
Yes, I will tell you time and time again.
Motherhood is messy.
It’s a beautiful mess in every way.
No mother has a perfect day, we are all learning along the way.
And there is NO other mess I would rather be in, then this beautiful, crazy, wonderful, chaotic and heartwarming mess of motherhood.
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL!
xoxo,
Christy Lee